naive

we are as different as heaven to earth
light to dark
man to woman
hello to goodbye
yet we are here together. surpassing the impossible
embracing each other, embrace


we have changed
but remain the same;
as if time never passed 
(we are) children with eyes wide

sure

Stay, so we can have the life we've always wanted

     wait.. 

for a moment and see things unravel 

and linger, it's true, we could live from the faintest swift of your fragrance 

I love us together... never- ever - ever I've been so sure

pushing Jessie

what if I never met you/would I ever learn.. to laugh endlessly?/to dare myself gambling my heart?/and to be.. vulnerable?/to feel that life is truly unfair for the unloved?/to know that only the luckiest who didn't see it coming, just like a supernova never schedule an appearance?/to experience what it's like to get back on my feet after falling, falling hard and failing?/...
would I ever be passionately in love?/and in the same time rationally in love?

status ridden relationship

When I was first announced my relationship with my current boyfriend back in high school, a couple of my best friends told me that they think I was only in it [relationship] to have the status. You know, girlfriend status.

I was upset surely (although I love them for it.. eventually), but not all of the statement is untrue. Looking back, I jumped into the ‘relationship’ fast enough before knowing all of his character and quality. Of course it triggered suspicion from my closest friends. At the very least, they show me how they really care about me.

My reason for declaring the relationship? I don’t know. I just fell hard in love (pardon me, I was only 18! Haha as if age was the reason.. I guess I’m a hopeless romantic and he swept me off my feet.) Although to be honest, I never thought I would be staying in this relationship for so long.

In my defense, it wasn’t 100% status ridden relationship. I wasn’t looking for status since I was considered traitor by several girl in my 12th grade class for having a boyfriend. Back then, jomblo was the way. Haha. And I wasn’t looking for a boyfriend five years ago. I was satisfied with my life and my achievement and my best girl friends.. it is not that I need anyone to fill the void in my life.

Honestly, in the beginning I didn’t think highly of him. I only expect him to be funny and get me laughing all day. After a while, he began earning my respect and nowadays I could say great things about him, not only for making my days but also for pushing me toward my goals and taught me to be more a committed and discipline person.

Anyway, today is my 75th month knowing him and he’s been a great, great company. We had our moments; stupid (mostly), crazy, endearing and sad.

But in the end all is sweet. Let's just pray and hope that there are more months to come.


PS: Anyway, when I told him the fact that it is our 75th month he said.. "Oh, sebentar lagi 100 dong yah.." "Stupido, it's going to be another 2 years to reach that point!" He's sort of slow in math considering he's a businessman heehee..

what can I say but -

I MISS U