incredulous

because he dare to move
he dare to own
he dare to gamble his heart
that makes me love him longer, harder and obvious
that makes him special because he gave it to me
before i even dare to ask.

for AB. 6 Aug 08. with huge love. M.

pathetic string cheese

I felt diabolic calling people pathetic -

Unfortunately I felt it to some of the nicest people around who I might not have nothing against me
It's just that it may be getting a bit too bad that I couldn't hold my tounge longer

I think I know what it's like not having 'friends' (it's me, who, btw has no kindergarten 'friend' and excluded from the 'cool kids' in elementary school..).

I know this is going to be harsh me saying this things - and I didn't mean to alienate people. But I think to certain extent people and condition did change that finally makes me included to the general human character and become more bland and acceptable. Well, not all does that - some still don't fit in no matter what they believe so.

And pushing it would be even more worse.
Please trust me - and be happy with the one who appreciate you because you may not find one like so.

knots

I know it's hard for you to feel sad
having it out and about
prefer to fabricate it with laughter

I was crazy for the sun that you carry
you let me fall under false pretense
shouldn't I be angry?

I still have you beneath me
saddening my happiest moment
knot my throat with cries
yet, I let you do so

That's how I love
so the laugh will be innocent
the promise to be kept
and the sun to set in its place

marliette

study, work, happy

life is so simple

I'm taking CFA level 1 exam this Dec and yet, I haven't make any progress.. (bit by bit yes). I have September report and October conference. This stuff is difficult. No doubt.

pray for me

those uk guys

First, the Irish potty mouth James McAvoy
then Jim Sturgess..
yea, I think Hollywoodland kinda losing its magic over me :)

Watch "Across the Universe". Good stuff.

hop and I'll catch

I just realize that I'm quite protective over my friend last night, at Pancious, waiting for my #22 to pick me up from the porch where I keep on replaying some certain of conversation inside.

I had small reunion, btw, catching up with some good friends from high school, and some not really nice people apparently. Anywho, we were talking about few of our closest friend and they surely knows how close I am with my bestfriend, D, about whom one of the girl start talking trash.

I didn't realize how sad it was, when I started feeling so mad about it. No one can say those things about D, well no one except me..

For a moment there I remember whatever the trash-talk girl spoke, I had thought about it. But, I learned to accept it and I love her.

While I don't think TTG does.

It's quite an irony having another person to speak your mind only to disagree with it. Ah still, I don't believe it's quite right if people need other people approval to speak their own mind.

Anywho, it was a quite warm dinner if not for TTG with plates go round, lots of picture and re-living the best friend I had found half a decade ago. Until then.

return of the rash

shall you not worry 

I'm here, nothing will take me away 

not your anger 

nor your inability to be omnipresence 

please trust me 

please walk with me 

I love you and shall it matter 

*marliette, 21 agusto 08 

that flaming stuff

I hate clubs, well, just admit it now and we shall move on. 

But, people loves clubs, unlike me. It doesn't mean I'm more self righteous (need to work on that.. but..), I just don't. 

I finally fulfill my promise, meaning I'm in no one debt, to uncle T and go out with him for drink while he's still in town. It was one interesting evening, though, I must say. The one fill with light to medium-rare gossips, 80s music and flaming shoots. I just hope that.. we're next door :) 

desperate suburban mall rat

superbly tiring day at suburban malls (haha) and my feet are hurting like magical crazy matchstick (wish it is that small...).

I learned that we should always take our experience into good use, that's why I started this blog and will always put down few points guaranteeing life-time learning experience I had that particular day...

Major learning points from today's visits:

1. Having al-fresco dining area will guarantee a "happening" crowds

2. Suburban malls are still great place to hang out (if you are still in secondary high school)

3. No traffic jam from Cibubur to Jakarta during the 4PM-ish time frame. so people move to Cibubur!!!!

Anyhoo, thanks to Ms R who spend the day (half day) with us and sharing her life experience, in light to my boring one. Your daughters should be proud of you.